There's no way to know when I'll live my last tomorrow December 10, 2007
Posted by Keiran in : Work , add a commentThe weather sets the mood perfectly today. It's dark and grey, a nasty misty haze everywhere. The cold front finally moved in, so that extra chill in the air just puts the cap on the depressing mood of the weather. To make it even more fitting, that mist was beginning to turn into rain as I pulled into the parking garage at work, waiting to find out how much longer I'm here for.
That's the part I'm hating most — the freaking waiting. I've been here for 5 hours now, and I still don't know any more than I did when I left on Friday. Consensus seems to be that we won't find anything out until closer to the end of the week, and that makes me crazier. I just want to know how much longer I have my job, so I can make doctor appointments, and make sure I've got the medication I need, or am off stuff that's not as needed; since I won't be able to afford most of it when I'm unemployed. Most of the stores know how much longer they'll be open, so they are more informed than those of us here at corporate!
One of the amusing things though — the old head honcho of my department is actually back here as a consultant for the company that bought us/is closing us down. He popped in to see us earlier, just to say hi. It's nice to get to see him again, even if it's under these circumstances.
I'm pretty good, though, other than all the depressing unemployment crap. That MRI I had on my knees a while back came out ok – nothing torn/broken/etc. There was a lot of fluid on the knees, and the doc was pointing that out to me in the scans, as well as the arthritis. Final diagnosis was that I managed to severely wrench my knee. It's pretty much better now, most of the problems I'm having with it are my normal arthritis ones. I'm still having issues with my heart, they haven't been able to get the extra beats under control. I'm headed back in there this afternoon for a check up. While I'm in there, I need to let him know I don't know how much longer I'll have insurance, so we need to come up with a long term plan, since I won't be able to go in every few weeks like I am now. Ugh.
Mom's citizenship test is this coming Saturday. She's getting more and more nervous the closer it gets. We've been over all her documentation a few times now, making sure she has everything she needs to take with her.
The owners of the building our offices are in are having their annual Christmas treat for the tennants today. They've got tons of cookies and sweets set up, different drinks, and a violinist playing. Someone in line joked that we had our very own violinist to play as the ship sunk. haha. It is ironically fitting, though.
The rumor's true, I got the news, they're closing up the doors December 7, 2007
Posted by Keiran in : Work , 1 comment so farIt's finally happening. We are officially closing up shop. It was announced today at 4:45pm that the company has been purchased by Gordon Brothers, who will liquidate the corporation.
I have no idea how much longer I will have a job — I assume I will find all that out on Monday morning. (My guess, I could be out of work as soon as Monday, or as long as 2 months from now.) The company & stores will stay open through the holiday season, but there is the possibility of immediate layoffs, since some departments won't be needed any longer (for example, I would assume that we would not need buyers any longer, since we won't be buying new products).
I've been with Comp for over 9 years now. I'm hoping the severance package is halfway decent… if we even get severance packages at all. I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do once I'm officially out of work. Thanks to recurring tendonitis in my arm, I cannot type as fast as I used to be able to, so I can't really get another data-entry based job. I have no clue what I want to do, since I can't do that. And since I don't know what I want to do — that makes it a little difficult to start looking for a new job. haha. 
I do have a wonderful friend who is going to help me update my resume, once I find it. I can't say I'm sure I know where it is — after all, I haven't needed a resume in 9+ years. haha. I am more than likely going to go on unemployment for a little bit while I look for work. I'm also going to look into Vocational Rehabiliation to see if I qualify for that. If I do, they can hopefully retrain me/find me new areas of work I'd be qualified for, since I can no longer 10-key. That would at least help me figure out what lines of work to look into.
I'm in a fairly mellow mood at the moment. Since I got confirmation that the rumors were true, I've gone through a few cycles of emotions — surprise, relief, disappointment, shock, depression, etc. Even though I've known for quite a while now that this was on the horizon — it still stings now that it's actually going to happen.
Ugh. I am SO not looking forward to the whole process of applying and interviewing and crap.
I never seem to do it like anybody else November 12, 2007
Posted by Keiran in : Medical , 2commentsToday I feel this strange need to finish my "about me" section of the blog (well, attempt to finish) and create lists of everywhere else I can be found, (in case anyone wants to stalk me?) as well as about a zillion other wild and random ideas. The likelihood that any of that will get accomplished? Nil. Zilch. Nada. None.
The open MRI last week went well. The room I was in was all decorated like it was under the sea. Hah. At least it gave me something fun to stare at while I was immobile for about an hour & half. I get the results from the MRI today. I have a hunch the results are going to be good. I'm actually mostly able to walk today, no more constant intense searing pain. I know I messed it up pretty good though, and that's one reason it's taken so long to heal.
The heart ultrasound on Friday also went okay. I do have one valve that is a little "leaky", but it's minor and the doc wasn't worried about it. Other than that, my heart looks healthy and structurely sound. But, when they did another EKG, I had 4 extra beats in the six seconds they monitor. SO, obviously too many beats there, and that was with me on more meds than before. He wants me to up them again, and go back next week for another check on the EKG. I'm also working on cutting caffeine out again. I had my last soda on Saturday, and none since. I know I can do it, since I've done it several times in the past; it's just difficult to actually stay away from caffeinated sodas. I think I went for a year or two once, we'll see how long I last this time around.
I had a lot more I wanted to ramble about, but now that I have a few minutes, my mind is blank. Figures.